Dental Technology Training offer

During the 2 week holiday, I got a surprise when my mom gave me this letter. 

Turns out I'm still receiving offer from SPA.

This letter sparks that train of I-could've-have-been thoughts since this was the same course that I got when I applied in SPA after I finished my SPM.

Imagine that instead of going to Tawau, I would be experiencing life in Penang (since the only training centre specializing in this course is at that particular state).

I would be getting a monthly allowance of RM835 for 3 years instead of struggling to budget one semester's allowance until the end of my degree.

Not that I'm ungrateful, but knowing how the struggle is and looking at the constant changes in the field that I'm currently studying makes me think that there's something else out there that I could be pursuing.

I feel blessed because of the people I got to know for the few years that I have been here

but at the same time, all the things that I love became the things I can't bear.

For example, this semester I thought I'd be happy learning about Visual Arts, but the opposite happens. 

Stop.

I shouldn't go too far

(because our obedience is worth thousands,no kidding)

Now you have a hint that I feel there's something more to this that I could (and supposed to) be experiencing.
Anyway, my interview is going to take place by the end of the month but I can't attend it, like it or not, because I'm already bound to a contract.
But thank you,SPA, for letting me have the chance even though I have to reject it.
I wouldn't mind getting more offers just to see what I can get.