Something that I miss

I miss spending time with my grandmother. 

I realized I haven't visited her as frequently as I should ever since I stayed far away from home. 

It sucks now that she is no longer staying at the place where I have many fond memories of her.

I'm scared that one day her Alzheimer's will take a full affect on her.

I'm scared in the end the only detail she remembers about me is my name.

I'm scared when everything is too late for me to be with her.  

I pray that God looks after her for me.

P.S  I apologize if this is more of someone that I miss instead of something that I miss.